During my Christian period in the seventies I belonged to one of the many charismatic movements of the day. We called ourselves the ‘End Time Move of God.’ Our doctrine was quite similar to the more established Pentecostal Church. Our main message was ‘death to self’.

The means to doing this was to physically remove ourselves from society and move to a remote wilderness where we would all live in communal bliss until we became at one with God and with each other. . . wow man . . . heady stuff for me at the time.

Well, to make a long story short, it didn’t work folks. It didn’t work for our group, and it won’t work for your group, whether Christian or not, either. To drop the ego and become one with the universe . . . or God . . . or anything else. is ethereal gumbo, it’s bullshit.

“Ego” is a Latin and Greek (ἑγώ) word meaning “I”, often used in English to mean the “self”, “identity” or other related concepts. The only way to kill the ego and accomplish death to self is the old fashioned way of committing suicide and getting your ass planted into the ground.

So when you hear that your ego stands between you and God be forewarned. There are many religions/philosophies these days that advocate ‘death to self’ as if self is what is holding back your absorption into the oneness of creation.

You/I/me/we are not the problem. We are individuals for sure, but we were created individual for a purpose. We are unique in our gifts as well as our looks for a purpose. We are wonderful just the way we are. Ego is not the problem for us, false thinking brought about by listening to false teachers who don’t know what they are talking about is.

A teachers job is to help you through the process of realization, anything else, anybody else who places themselves between you and God is egotism on their part. If you hear the words, “God told me to tell you” . . . run the other way.

Egotism is the feeling or belief that you are better, more important, more talented, etc., than other people . . . this is ignorance and this where the confusion comes in. Egotism is not at all the fullness of ego, it is merely the negative side of ego.

Everything a healthy brain needs to know is programmed into the subconscious mind at birth. It’s instinctual, like all animals. What makes things different for us humans is that we have a ‘choose’ button. Don’t give control of that button to another person, use it to make the right decisions for yourself based upon love, mercy, grace, and kindness.

It’s our job and our responsibility to manifest the positive side of the ego, no one else’s. First, we must learn to love ourselves and we must begin to realize what a powerful spiritual entity we are.

I AM . . . you’re not! = egotism.

I AM . . . and so are you . . . and so are we all = individuality molded into oneness . . . the drop of water recognizing the pond from which it came . . . the person reveling in his individuality while in realization that he/she is one string in this beautiful tapestry called life.

This our mission . . . to remain the individual ego while at the same time being aware that we, as well as all other life forms, are one and the same.

We live within a time frame while on this earth. Why waste that time trying to free ourselves from ego when as individuals we can relish, and enjoy, and learn, and experience, all that life has to offer? Why not jump into the river of life and swim instead?



  1. jjwalters

    yes, I know, but ego is “I am” so how do you get rid of I am? . . . this stuff gets all locked up in high sounding words . . . there IS reality here, but we have to stay real. . . . . anyways thanks for the reward (bow) . . . I linked up with you and will put the logo on my site. . . .


  2. Jennie Saia

    Yes! I love this. Being yourself is an honor, an adventure, a beautiful thing… it’s how you discover the world, by moving through it with your own body and thoughts and soul. I’d never want to do away with that!


  3. jjwalters

    Let me tell you a little story: Back in the early seventies when I became a Christian they gave me the ego routine . . . I was a hippy poet at the time and I tossed a whole book of my writings because I didn’t want to be prideful. . . . . . AHHHH! WTF was I thinking?! I still think about my poems . . . were they great? I doubt it, but they were mine dammit.

    You are a special creation Jennie and you will have a great life/lives just being you . . .


  4. Jennie Saia

    Oh, no!! Not the poems!! Yeah, I can’t imagine sacrificing your creative gift would help you get closer to any power worth knowing. At least, although you can’t read back and either admire/cringe at your younger self’s work, you remember how you felt then, and how far you’ve come.

    In college, I joined a group called the Self Knowledge Symposium. Some days it was great, and we played games and did activities that really opened us up to each other and ourselves. Other days, it was really cult-ish, and focused on the “guru” – an older man who’d done some studies into Buddhism. One day, I found myself – a strict vegetarian – on this man’s farm scrubbing out congealed animal blood from the bottom of a refrigerator, and I realized, this is SO not my path to enlightenment.

    Anyway… thanks so much for your moving words. It’s lovely to be reminded that just being myself is enough for a great life.


  5. Erik Andrulis

    JJ, thanks for writing this. When I first began trying to model my own ego, that was surely weird. I mean, I thought to myself, how do I do that? Am I so arrogant and egotistical (oh, the irony!) to think that I can actually, successfully, model my mind, my ego, superego, and id, as they’ve been called.

    And the answer I gave myself was: yes. But it was odd, for sure, because I had to come face to face with my own arrogance, my own conceit and self-inflation. Therein, I discover Myself.

    That is to say, the greatest arrogance and ego was in realizing that I created and create and am the Universe. I did it All and do it All for Myself. I mean, seriously, that is sooooo Self-centered. And, a’yup, humbling as heck. Well, that’s being God for ya: It’s—that is, I am—both at the same time. Peace, Ik


  6. jjwalters

    I stood on a lazy mountain top in Alaska once . .. spread my arms ad shouted into the wind, “It’s all mine!” . . . I had no idea as to the depth and truth of that statement . . .

    What’s great about it is we all, as we awaken, can say the same thing and it will be just as true for them as it is for me . . . ego is not to be feared, ignorance may be though.


  7. Erik Andrulis

    Righteous, Brother. Righteous. It is all Mine. And knowing this makes Me the Steward – what a big, frightening responsibility. One can run from that, or embrace it. I choose to embrace All that I am. Peace, Ik


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